When you don’t trust yourself,
When you don’t know your value,
When you deem yourself unworthy,
You can’t fully be in your power.
I don’t care what position you hold.
How many degrees you have.
The number of people who look up to or admire you.
The amount of accolades on your wall.
All of that is external.
None of it is who you are.
It can all be taken away in an instant.
When I left the legal profession for a pilgrimage to Europe, I quickly realized all the prestige, power, and authority I held as a criminal prosecutor disappeared. While counting foreign change at the market in France, no one cared what I had done or how much I had achieved. To them, I was simply an American woman getting on their nerves because it took me too long to find their version of a penny, unable to speak their language.
At times, it enraged me. I wanted to scream, “Don’t you know who I am?! I am not stupid! I am not an imbecile! Don’t treat me like I am!”
Because I believed my intellect – my success – my achievements – made me worthy.
But when it was all gone, a part of me crumbled inside. There was nothing to grasp, nothing to hold onto with which I could define myself.
All of the power I had obtained was based on external circumstance. I hadn’t yet known what it was like to feel my inner power. To anchor into my innate worthiness by accessing the love in every cell of my being. To know my value and the value of all I offer – just by being me.
The me underneath the rubble of expectations I tried to fulfill, demands I hurried to meet, and roles I played.
Fear engulfed me at times. I wondered how I was supposed to know myself as worthy when there was nothing to prove it.
I liken the journey to tearing down walls of fear while filling myself up with the truth that resided deep within me. The light of my soul felt like a small little light at first. The more attention I gave it – by turning my eyes inward – the greater it grew. Fear began to lose its grasp.
Every time fear showed up, I held it in loving arms and soothed it with sweet words like, “I know you’re scared. You believe you’re all alone. You’re afraid no one will love you.” Sometimes I simply screamed it out of me with a deep belly roar that said, “Enough! No more giving my power away to this belief rooted in fear!”
Each time I faced the fear head-on, the light of my soul grew brighter. Because it knew I was choosing to trust my soul – the part of me that exists beyond this world – to guide me through whatever darkness I faced. My path – and the path I take my clients on – is to merge body and soul here and now so I can live my ecstatic truth.
My personal journey has required me to dig deep in my bones – to venture all the way back to over 5,000 years ago when the power of women began to be feared and violence against women took root. Due to intentional warfare and violence, it was no longer safe for women to bare their souls to the world. We hid them away and looked up and out – away from the wisdom that resides in our bodies, in our feet, in our connection to the earth.
Now, I bring these original beliefs to the surface through my coaching and teachings so you can begin to uproot them from your own subconscious mind and – once again – know freedom. Sovereignty. True power. Power anchored in knowing you are divinely worthy no matter what you do, no matter how much you’re achieved, no matter what others think of you, or how “good” you are.
There are two upcoming opportunities to work with me, both of which will be fabulously fun.
(1) I’m delivering a talk to Activate your Feminine Power during the WE! Ignite Women’s Conference February 10 – 12, 2022. It’s a 3-day online event designed to inspire, empower, and connect. The talk is at 5:30 p.m. EST on Friday, and an experiential workshop will be offered on Saturday at 4 p.m. EST. Grab your seat and see the host of other awesome speakers here.
(2) The Activate your Inner Power Release Party will take place on Monday, February 14 (Valentine’s Day!) from 1 – 2 p.m. EST. It’s a free gathering to celebrate the launch of a new 6-week self-study program (which you can read about more here). See the flyer below for more details and click here to register for free. Everyone who registers or attends live will receive 20% off the program (wahoo!!!!). Replays will be available.